Short update

A cat who seems to like me (or the camera) and kept approaching while we're studying the environment at the riverbank. 

Couldn't stand facing the PC without any progress, I went to bed early yesterday at about 11, woke up at 7 in the morning, went jogging alone, wondering how long I could keep this up.

Received an order from team leader in the evening, another submission for the freelance job next week. BURPPPP!!!! I can't run anymore, can I? still in the holiday mood. you can't imagine how fed up I am sitting in front of the PC...

I want to go home this weekend!
so I can bring my younger sis makan-makan once she comes back from NS.
so I can grab the latest Mina magazine.
so I can... go shopping again??

Today feel pretty depressed after discovered my photos during the Kelantan trip are full of noises. CARELESS COULD KILL! it kills my heart this time. so hurt so sad so disappointed. I was so excited to check out my photos because I believed that I had some improvement during the trip. Yet in the end mostly are ruined by my careless. :(
It feels like you have been spending efforts taking very good care of a tree and were happily watching the fruits growing. But in the end, you got dumped from heaven to hell just to notice that the fruits that look good from outside have actually being infected from the inside since the very BEGINNING!!!

Wish I could edit and sort the photos right away and blog about the trip, but job, money and responsibility come first. Will have to leave it until next week (if I could control myself).

Because it's you

Because of you, 

I start drawing again,

on paper, with markers,

heartfully.

It's not a perfect drawing,

but I like it,

because it's you.

Hope you like it too,

Thank you.

April - Shits happened!

As titled, April, a shits-happened-month. Have been so busy with a lot of stuff, and is still busy-ing. For the job, we were able to finish our first milestone on time, which is great. For my life, I finally moved to the MMU staff apartment, but had an unpleasant argument with the new tenants who are going to stay with my lovely housemates. I never felt sorry for intending to break the promise, but I felt really bad and regret for keeping this good-for-nothing promise (actually is being forced to) which could caused them trouble in the future. Now I realized that I could be inhuman for the sake of those I love. But too bad I'm still not fierce enough to fight against those thick-skinned aliens!!!

Woke up yesterday midnight because this piece of shit just pierced into my mind and never stopped bugging me until I doddle it out in my PC. The phrase that came along with it was,

"a great photographer is a person who could turn a bull shit into a HOLY SHIT!" 

no, i'm not trying to make fun of the photographers out there, but this is my other way of praising them (though i know not everyone could understand the joke?) I believe that great photographers usually have their very own perspectives in telling stories through their lens. They capture the moments, the souls which we normally unaware of. For example, instead of shooting the rubbish in the refuse dump, they could give you the innocent faces with beautiful souls who are trying hard to survive by collecting the wastes from the others.

Photographs that are not only empty shells, I hope I could do something like that someday.

Hallelujah

it's indeed the most achingly beautiful song i've ever listened to.

their Hallelujah is so hurt that i wanna cry when they repeating it,
again and again.

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A song introduced by Sam, she showed me the version by Rufus Wainwright, 
which is one of the soundtrack from Shrek.