Money matters

Just now I took a walk after the rain and sat by the pool until some crazy residents came around and broke my solitude. This is the swimming pool at Cyberia Clubhouse, the pool that I love the most, despite that I can't swim nor even have a swimsuit. It's much more soothing during night time where the lights are dim and the surrounds are quiet and peaceful. I could spend an hour sitting by the pool, humming songs, paddling the water with my legs and enjoying the gentle breeze. I'm blissful how it could easily ease my pains and worries. Sometimes I do wish I could curl up myself under the water to hide from the world.

Too bad I will not be able to enjoy this privilege after a month or two as I will be moving to the staff apartment. Ah, so sad. It's all because of money matters, it really really does matter.

I believe everyone has their own dreams, beautiful dreams. While most of the time, the main villain that stops them from reaching the dreams is "money", don't you agree? I've been counting my monthly incomes and expenses over and over again. Rental, bills, study loan, personal supplies, parent's need, etc. The conclusion is always the same, merely RM2,000 per month is only sufficient for my "present", it can never secure my "future". The only way out is to get more freelance/part-time jobs.

Oh God, could you generously dump some money down to me? :D

The career talk by Fei from Igloo Digital Arts struck my mind and kind of woke me up. Be it handmade artist, illustrator, photographer or makeup artist, they all couldn't make myself a living for now. So I should focus back on my dream in creating games and animations. I should prove myself some achievement in this field before I reach my thirty. As for the others, I believe it is never too late to pick them up in the future when I wish to slow down my pace. In short, I have sorta clear up some fogs that block my views all these times.