I miss blogging

As titled, I miss blogging.

Recently a strange feeling kept coming back to me. I was so worried at the beginning, but eventually, I realize that it actually helps me to think positively at most of the situation, so I just let it flows in me.

Ha you don't get it don't you? me neither. But I will just let it be.

I wanted to blog more, but look at my layout, I seriously have no idea what blogspot has done to my layout... And worst of all, I'm lazy to go through all the html again to fix it, yet I don't feel like applying any of the blogspot  template because I like mine so so much.... T_T

test blogging with htc!!

Just got my HTC Desire HD yesterday. This is a test post. It's awesome! :D

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To do list...

I've been away for a week, and disconnected from the Internet for these 7 days. And once I came back, I checked my email, I checked my facebook and felt, there's hell lot of stuff for me to catch up!! My mind just couldn't function properly and organize my tasks that have been piling up. So, this list is here to make things clear to myself >.<

1. Compiling FYP for archive purpose
2. Creating character for freelance
3. Designing website for my dad
4. Buying domain for my dad's website
5. Replying email for my future job opportunity
6. Preparing bloody portfolio for my future
7. Replying letter for my child
8. Switching telco
9. Buying new mobile phone
10. List a new-proper-to-do-list for year 2011
11. And a few that i have to do but shouldn't be stated here >.<

New Boxes

I bought these two boxes last week, aren't they adorable? What are they for? Hehe, they will be the new home of all my fabrics for handmade crafts!

While listening to Hebe's new album, I started "setting-up" the boxes. Folding here and there, trying to figure out how to "construct" them. It took me some time and effort, coz I'm really not good in doing puzzles. And I was wondering how slow I'm compared to my sis and my dear. These should be a piece of cake for both of them and I believe they could complete in a glimpse!

Once settled, I swept the floor and cleaned the messy corner in my room that was full with boxes and books and many other stuff! And finally after two hours, I managed to tidy it up, and it looks so much better now.

I sometimes feel great and harmony while doing things alone, for example cleaning the room or doing the laundry. They are nothing special, yet I enjoy doing them, sometimes, alone.

I'm satisfied. ^_^

My love and archery

The first post after 5 months of missing in action, is anyone still care if I would ever blog again? Well, it doesn't matter, does it? I blog for myself, I live for myself. (and of course for the people who I love!)

Looking backwards now, I felt like I've again wasted a lot of time and didn't gain much achievement. I admit that I'm foolish and so I always look at the bright side~ XD Even though I've been neglecting my mission, I'm still satisfied with what I've done because there were a lot of memorable moments. What mission you have? Nah, just a very simple one - improve myself everyday even for a little bit so that I will never stay on the same spot for too long. 

Playing with Photoshop again... look at ma tummy!! :D (photo taken by Cheryl)

I joined the archery club in the university and fell in love with it, so so much! Joined a friendly battle between Cyberjaya and Malacca campuses, it was really a great experience. Now it's the new trimester, and I finally get to play it again after 2 months. A junior tournament is coming soon, feel excited yet nervous. Can't play as good as before and there's only one week left for practice, but I will not give up! I love everything about archery but not the sunburn I got from it, I don't like my tanned-skin. T.T Someday, I shall get myself a bow and arrows when I'm getting better! :D

The person who brought me into archery is someone who came into my life few months ago - the little guy in the pic above. I swear that I've never expected myself going out with someone younger than me. >_<" In the end, love is blind and age doesn't matter, at all. Thanks for everything you have taught me so far, I'm happy that things turn out this way. And I'm sorry for hurting you, I know I did... And thank you again for accepting who I am, the way I am. :) You're precious to me!

In another 2 months time, it will be 2011! I should do something to make a beautiful ending and welcome the brand new year! Gambatte~!

Kelantan Trip 01

Finally get some time to touch up the "noisy" trip photos which once broke my heart. It was fun at the beginning when I was overwhelmed by the power of digital editing. but somehow i am getting sick of it now while there are still piles of them awaiting. Below are some chosen one and there might be some others coming soon, or maybe not.

a scale model in a workshop

an ordinary construction land, washed by a long rain;

a clear blue sky, contrast with a muddy land;

reflection appears, miracle happens.

a small dock by the river

courage and bravery in exchange of splendid photographs

on the way back to hotel, crossing the Sungai Kelantan

Short update

A cat who seems to like me (or the camera) and kept approaching while we're studying the environment at the riverbank. 

Couldn't stand facing the PC without any progress, I went to bed early yesterday at about 11, woke up at 7 in the morning, went jogging alone, wondering how long I could keep this up.

Received an order from team leader in the evening, another submission for the freelance job next week. BURPPPP!!!! I can't run anymore, can I? still in the holiday mood. you can't imagine how fed up I am sitting in front of the PC...

I want to go home this weekend!
so I can bring my younger sis makan-makan once she comes back from NS.
so I can grab the latest Mina magazine.
so I can... go shopping again??

Today feel pretty depressed after discovered my photos during the Kelantan trip are full of noises. CARELESS COULD KILL! it kills my heart this time. so hurt so sad so disappointed. I was so excited to check out my photos because I believed that I had some improvement during the trip. Yet in the end mostly are ruined by my careless. :(
It feels like you have been spending efforts taking very good care of a tree and were happily watching the fruits growing. But in the end, you got dumped from heaven to hell just to notice that the fruits that look good from outside have actually being infected from the inside since the very BEGINNING!!!

Wish I could edit and sort the photos right away and blog about the trip, but job, money and responsibility come first. Will have to leave it until next week (if I could control myself).

Because it's you

Because of you, 

I start drawing again,

on paper, with markers,

heartfully.

It's not a perfect drawing,

but I like it,

because it's you.

Hope you like it too,

Thank you.

April - Shits happened!

As titled, April, a shits-happened-month. Have been so busy with a lot of stuff, and is still busy-ing. For the job, we were able to finish our first milestone on time, which is great. For my life, I finally moved to the MMU staff apartment, but had an unpleasant argument with the new tenants who are going to stay with my lovely housemates. I never felt sorry for intending to break the promise, but I felt really bad and regret for keeping this good-for-nothing promise (actually is being forced to) which could caused them trouble in the future. Now I realized that I could be inhuman for the sake of those I love. But too bad I'm still not fierce enough to fight against those thick-skinned aliens!!!

Woke up yesterday midnight because this piece of shit just pierced into my mind and never stopped bugging me until I doddle it out in my PC. The phrase that came along with it was,

"a great photographer is a person who could turn a bull shit into a HOLY SHIT!" 

no, i'm not trying to make fun of the photographers out there, but this is my other way of praising them (though i know not everyone could understand the joke?) I believe that great photographers usually have their very own perspectives in telling stories through their lens. They capture the moments, the souls which we normally unaware of. For example, instead of shooting the rubbish in the refuse dump, they could give you the innocent faces with beautiful souls who are trying hard to survive by collecting the wastes from the others.

Photographs that are not only empty shells, I hope I could do something like that someday.

Hallelujah

it's indeed the most achingly beautiful song i've ever listened to.

their Hallelujah is so hurt that i wanna cry when they repeating it,
again and again.

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A song introduced by Sam, she showed me the version by Rufus Wainwright, 
which is one of the soundtrack from Shrek.